Growing up is scary.

But so is staying the same.

Growing up is scary.

It’s like a rollercoaster. You can’t get off.

Growing up is scary.

Nobody gives you a map.

We spent so much of our child hood waiting to be older.

“I can’t wait until I’m double digits!”

“I can’t wait until I’m a teenager!”

“I can’t wait until I’m in high school!”

“I can’t wait until I’m an adult!”

“I can’t wait until I’m in college!”

“I can’t wait until I can legally drink!”

“I wish I was a kid again.”

It feels like stepping into the unknown.

Where once I felt secure and comfortable with how life was going, with one birthday it all changed.

Now I’m constantly worried about everything.

“Will I have enough money for rent this month if I buy this?”

“I can’t eat that or I’ll be bloated.”

“What if one day I wake up and I have nobody and I’ll have to get through life alone.. “

Some of my thoughts are scary. Others are scarier.

I’m realizing that not all the friends I make are life long friends.

The decisions I make genuinely matter now.

I can’t sit back and let my parents figure out everything for me anymore.

I feel like a bum anytime I call my parents and ask for money.

I know they will give it to me, but I hate knowing deep down that I’m 20 years old and can’t afford to fill up my car sometimes.

I’m 20 years old and I don’t even know what I want to major in.

I’m 20 years old and I don’t even know if I want to STAY in school.

I’m 20 years old and I didn’t ask for any of these responsibilities.

Growing up is scary.